More Counting

I had a very creepy, way-too-vivid dream last night. Actually, it was this morning right before I woke up (woke me up an hour and a half early and I couldn't even think about going back to sleep). I can still hear the things in the dream, and none of them are anything I ever want to hear in real life. Anybody have a good way to repress creepy dream memories? I want to get it all out of my head and never think about it again.

Yeah, the counting, almost forgot (and it's only been 2 minutes since I typed the title, that dream was creepy, it's screwing up my entire day). Number of contacts in my cell phone: 61. Number that are not friends (Dr, vet, etc): 9. Number that I haven't called in over 6 months and have no idea if they are still working numbers: 15. Number that are additional numbers for a person (home, cell, work): 9. Number that I called when I started packing: 2. That's right, out of 28 people that I know and love, I told 2 (and one on messenger, but we're talking cell phone here). Subconcious faith that I was staying married no matter what it looked like at the time? Laziness? Not wanting to cry yet again? Shame for being in a second failed marriage (the first time I was 19, long story, I may tell it sometime if anybody asks)? Lack of consideration for the people who would most want to comfort me? I don't fucking know. But I do know that I kept thinking in my head that night "would you just go to bed so I can get on blo.gger?" Thanks to everybody who made that thought worthwhile. Your comments really did help me get through every day. A couple times a day I'd get an email telling me about a message, and those emails were my bright spots. I couldn't thank any of you enough.